A Plate for Three
The candles flickered against the dim light of our dining room, casting long shadows across the table set for three. It was my 47th birthday, a day I used to love. But for the last two years, it had become a quiet ritual of grief, a moment I braved for the small, persistent hope that refused to die inside me. I placed the third plate out of habit—or maybe out of longing. That plate was for Karen.
My daughter hadn’t spoken to me in over two years.Brad, my husband, walked in from the kitchen with a bowl of mashed potatoes, his expression gentle but uncertain. “You sure about the third plate?” he asked, setting the bowl down next to the meatloaf I had worked too hard to make. My hands were still shaking from preparing it, like I was cooking for someone who might never come home.
I nodded, swallowing the lump in my throat. “Just in case,” I said, as I had every year since she stopped talking to me.Brad reached across the table and squeezed my hand. He didn’t need to say anything. His eyes said it all—he loved me, he supported me, and he too mourned the silence that had replaced Karen’s laughter.
The smell of the food filled the house—meatloaf, just the way she used to like it when she was little. With extra ketchup on top, slightly burnt edges, and creamy mashed potatoes made with heavy cream and butter. Comfort food. Her food.
I sat down slowly, trying not to imagine the click of the door, the rush of footsteps, the breathless “Hi, Mom!” I had replayed that scenario in my head a hundred times. Each birthday, each holiday, each Sunday afternoon when the house grew too quiet.The silence was louder than any scream.
We ate in silence, the scraping of forks on plates echoing through the space where Karen’s voice used to be. Brad kept glancing at the empty chair, but he didn’t say anything else. He knew better than to remind me that this seat had been empty the last two years.
After dinner, I tried calling her again. I had tried dozens of times before. I didn’t expect an answer this time either, but part of me needed to do it, needed to say her name into the phone just to remember how it felt to speak to her.I listened to the phone ring once, twice…then it dropped.
I stared at the screen like it might offer me an explanation. Had she blocked me again? Or maybe changed her number?
The silence that followed felt like another door slamming in my face.
