I almost didn’t go. After a draining week, I nearly ordered takeout, but instead I dressed up and took myself to a nice restaurant. “Reservation for one,” I told the host. He seated me by the window, where the city glowed outside. I ordered wine, salad, and halibut, savoring the quiet hum around me. Midway through, the server asked if I’d move so a family could combine tables. My instinct was to apologize and give way, but instead I said calmly, “I’d like to stay here.” He nodded, though shame lingered at my table.
Then the family’s mother approached. To my surprise, she thanked me—not for moving, but for not moving. She said she wanted her kids to see that “a party of one is still a party.” Her words shifted something in me. I wasn’t selfish for staying; I was claiming space.
Dinner became more tender after that—the halibut perfect, the lemon tart bright, the twins waving me a drawing of my table. Even the server left a note on the check: “Come back anytime. Table by the window is happy to see you.”
I went home with that drawing tucked into my mirror, reminded that being alone doesn’t mean being less. Sometimes, it just means you belong exactly where you are.