Have you ever noticed how the worst moments in life don\u2019t feel real at the time? Just little pieces you remember. The smell of antiseptic.<\/p>\n
The soft beep-beep of machines. The way time stops. That\u2019s what the day my daughter died felt like.<\/p>\n
I remember holding her hand before the doctors rushed her into emergency surgery. I remember the doctor had a mole on his chin. I remember his voice shaking as he said the words that crushed my world.<\/p>\n
\u201cI\u2019m so sorry. We did everything we could\u2026 but her injuries were just too severe.\u201d
\nAfter that, everything became a blur. I don\u2019t even remember how I got home.<\/p>\n
My brain just\u2026 shut down. Her name was Emma. She was 16.<\/p>\n
She had been driving home from the library when a speeding truck ran a red light and smashed right into her car. She never had a chance. She had dreams.<\/p>\n
She wanted to save the environment. She used to talk about ocean cleanups and replanting forests. And now\u2014just like that\u2014she was gone.<\/p>\n
I couldn\u2019t sleep. I couldn\u2019t eat. I spent days in her room, wrapped in her scent, hugging her hoodie, crying into her pillows.<\/p>\n
That\u2019s how my ex-husband Tom found me the day before the funeral. I was already dressed in black, holding Emma\u2019s favorite hoodie like it could somehow bring her back. He sat beside me, picking up a book she\u2019d left on her nightstand\u2014Climate Change and Our Future.<\/p>\n
He whispered, \u201cShe was going to change the world.\u201d
\nWe looked at each other and just broke. Sobbing, both of us. Tom and I had stayed close after our divorce.<\/p>\n
We actually got along better as co-parents than we ever did as a couple. He even came to my wedding two years ago when I married Frank. \u201cShe told me she\u2019d picked her college,\u201d he said softly.<\/p>\n
\u201cUC Davis,\u201d I answered. \u201cShe loved their environmental science program. Said it was the best.\u201d<\/p>\n
He sniffled.<\/p>\n
\u201cWhat are we supposed to do now? Without her?\u201d
\nI whispered, \u201cI don\u2019t know. I really don\u2019t.\u201d
\nA week after the funeral, Tom and I met to talk about Emma\u2019s college fund.<\/p>\n
We\u2019d saved $25,000 over ten years\u2014plus the money Emma earned from her summer job at the ice cream shop by the beach. She used to come home every night sticky with syrup and smelling like vanilla and sea salt. She was so proud of that job.<\/p>\n
\u201cI know it sounds silly,\u201d Tom said, \u201cbut taking that money back\u2026 it just feels wrong.\u201d
\nI nodded. \u201cI was thinking the same.\u201d Then I handed him some pages I\u2019d printed\u2014two environmental charities Emma loved. One planted trees in South America.<\/p>\n
The story doesn\u2019t end here \u2014 it continues on the next page.
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